What Do You Do When Something Becomes Comfortable?
As humans it’s natural to stay in an environment that in some way we seek comfort from, even toxic ones.
Given that my addictions started at such a young age I was vulnerable enough to be moulded, Shaped, Groomed and disciplined. 15 years ago the rules and consequences were set in stone and taken seriously. You’re wondering how the hell addicts would even have rules and consequences aren’t you? Or as if they would care who they hurt and the behaviour they displayed?.
I’ll Enlighten You
Believe it or not we had a moral code too, slightly different to your world but appropriate for ours. We know right from wrong we’re just better at justifying our actions, not to you either but to ourselves. Our world can be quite confusing sometimes when it comes to morality I guess it’s Nature Vs Nurture that has us conflicted.
Keeping your word - If you say you’re going to do something and don’t, you’re integrity is instantly questioned.
Own your shit - If you fuck up OWN it, take responsibility, admit you’re wrong doings and fix them.
Communication - If you fail to lack in this area in any aspect, you’re just digging yourself a hole.
Keep your mouth shut - You don’t know anything or anyone
Have an issue with someone? Address them directly about it and keep it between you both.
Excuses - Just because you’re under the influence does not give you an excuse to be a shitty person, don’t blame it on the substance you’re clearly capable of that behaviour when you’re not on something.. at the end of the day it’s still YOU.
From Then to Now
What the actual fuck happened?
Did half of us not get the email about maintaining some sort of moral code? Did someone rewrite it? How the fuck is this acceptable?
There’s a new group in town who think threatening family members, Children even your belongings is acceptable behaviour. Deceiving the ones who helped them out of the gutter, Manipulating the one who actually still live morally, Publicising their substance use, wouldn’t even know what the word respect even looked like nor meant, Stealing and ripping each other off, playing people against each other, Building army’s left right and centre.. I could go on but you get the point unfortunately they didn’t, they smoked it. It’s been 15 minutes, 3 pipes lit by someone else and they have already lost themselves.. I just can’t even begin to.. hold on, give me a minute.
WHO FUCKING RAISED YOU? A BLIMB? YOU HAVE NO SENSE OF DIRECTION…
This new breed or whatever they are will stop at nothing to get a bag, The shit my eyes have witnessed can never be unseen and trust me they’ve done some vial shit that even makes me cringe
“I’m Just Finishing My Drink And Sharpening My Nails, I’ll Be With You Soon
— Quote Karma -Suitsya