The 21st of June 2006

Chaos & Confusion, Reality Vs Illusion

who am I?, good question..

Addictions, Mental Health, Self Sabotage, Insanity, Morality, Social Expectations, Biases, Denial, Manipulation, Deceit, Revenge. - Just to name a few.

I remember the events of June the 21st 2006 like it was yesterday. 16 years old filled with curiosity about a utensil made of glass, a bag with little clear type crystals and a lighter sitting on the coffee table that my brother had set out. I asked questions about how it made him feel and why did he like doing it so much, he couldn’t put it in to words and explained “it’s something you have to try to understand. I contemplated as I watched him prepare the glass pipe and drop the crystals into the top of the little bowl of the pipe. The lighter sparked and he held it underneath the bowl heating the crystals, they gradually turned to liquid and as the glass started to cool down the liquid turned from a puddle and set around the bowl, he lit it again until it turned back to liquid and smoke began to rise. I watched my brother inhale the smoke while rolling the pipe Side to side. He exhaled a cloud of thick white smoke I waited to see any difference in him, I quickly noticed his pupils had dilated and his eyes widen like he had just opened a sixth sense.

“Did you want to try this and see what it feels like” he asked. Anxious about what this smoke would do to me I asked more and more questions but he kept responding with answers that were calming me down like I would be safe and he wouldn’t let anything bad happen. I agreed, he held the pipe and lit it coaching me when and how to inhale, after exhaling the smoke I felt my eyes expand I felt my heart beat deeper then ever and my attention span went from zero to hero, I was captivated